TestimonyMy name is Jennifer Felix and I have been a Christian now for approximately 9 years. However, prior to becoming a Christian, there are various events within my past that not only caused me to start running from myself but also caused me to start running from God. To start with, my family was what I perceived as a typical middle class family, but it had its struggles and when I was approximately 8 or 9 years old my mother was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. The kind she had was chronic progressive, so it never got better, only worse.As a result of this, there became much anger and tension within my family. It was also during this time that I encountered my first sexual experience with a neighborhood boy. At the time I did not know that it was actually a form of sexual abuse. But because of the tension within my family I remained silent. Now although this was my first experience with sexual abuse, it was not my last. I had several. But the last one that I did have was when I was approximately 12 years old and I was sexually molested by a member of the church that my family had been attending. I was told to be silent about the matter by the people I trusted, and so I was. After that I became involved with smoking, drinking, drugs, tattoos, shopping, and anything else that made my pain and loneliness go away. I have also participated in many different illegal activities that should have landed me in jail but did not. I now believe today that although I started running away from God when I was 12, he knew my heart and knew that I truly did love him, and so he forever remained faithful to me in spite of my life decisions. I didn’t return to Jesus Christ until I was 30 years old and my mother had just passed away. I needed answers but did not know where to look other than church. But because just going to church stirred up so much pain from the past, which reminded me of my mistrust for people within church, I reached out to the only one that I thought mattered, the senior pastor. He loved me, baptized me, and became a dear friend to me. And now 9 years later, I live to serve Christ and share his never failing love with others. May God Bless You Always Jennifer Felix |